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The Apology feat. Derek Howa (Demo Master) (prod. by De La Croix)

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A would-be father's letter of apology to his unborn, and by extension, their mother. Another personal favorite that originally landed on the cutting room floor. It’s been reworked and will be released in an entirely different iteration on a future project, but this version is Genesis. And now, it’s yours.

lyrics

[Hook]
I apologize (Repeat 4x)

[Verse]
Y’all reside in the center of your mother’s irises
See, the glimmer in her eyes is your flyness and I can’t even lie
For me to bring y’all here at the time was
Something that I feared was unwise and I
Mired in selfish pride was 24/25
Itching to be mentioned with lyricists I admired
Unprepared to be a father
Didn’t care, to be honest
Despite what was clear as your mom’s desire and so I
Apologize
The decision to end your beginning here was mine
The decision of sin, of infamy is mine
A decision which rendered y’all a memory of mine
A memory I’ve tried to decline
And even to dismiss
But I hear y’all speak with each movement of her lips
I
See y’all peek every time her eyes twitch
I
Feel y’all breathe with each breath she emits
And unrest it wrests and rips at the seams
Of everything I thought I ever might’ve believed
The denial of seed is nothing I’d ever dreamed I
Have the cowardice and gall to achieve, I
Wish your mother had admonished my weakness
But I ain’t even trying to fault her, I mean sh!t
As a man, I should be honoured and geeked
At the chance to be a father, to harbor a sweet gift
Your grandfather’s like a god to me
Flawed, sure, but we’re all to be
What he accomplished in fostering seed all in all inspired glee
Awe and esteem
Above all it inspired me, so
Why’d I falter when you called to me?
Twice falter when you called to me?
The first time was a call
The second was a plea
Forgive me for ignoring the voice of my seed, Lord
But He sees all
And He sees I wasn’t worthy to be yours
Probably seethes at my nerve and my weak heart
And I agree and I yearn He won’t be hard
Because I see y’all
Y’all
Reside in your mother’s irises
See, the glimmer in her eyes is your flyness
In the center of your mother’s irises
I see the glimmer in her eyes:
Your flyness

[Bridge]
Never seen your faces
Still your faces
Steal your place in me
So I steel my face to
See your faces
Still I pray and plead

And apologize

[Hook]

credits

released January 12, 2024
Production by D. L. Croix
Piano by D. Howa
Lyrics by G. R. Daggett
Mixed by Andy Rodriguez and Adrian Rice for Jordan River Recordings
Mastered by Seth Hamilcar at Amberwood Studios for Sound Of Cannae

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